Russell

Russell who are you? what does that even mean, who am I? answering that question sometimes is as weird and uncomfortable as asking it you are strength power reserve resilience perseverance creative individual original idealistic spiritually exuberant champion brave and courageous but what you aren't, is identity you aren't confidence as much as you are pride ego indignity you are just as much beaten down and weak as you are strong and powerful but this is why you are reserve resilience and perseverance yet still instilled like steel, you are just as much deflated simple and predictable as you are creative you are just as much judged, judgmental, hated, and hateful as you are your own individual you are every bit of everybody else their business and opinions as you are original and idealistic you are every bit of shaped as much as u are a shape-shifter u are every bit scared and fearful as u are brave and courageous u are every bit a loser as u are a champion you are a robot on autopilot why? because u succumb because u just put up because u can do bad all by yourself and u just koo and chillin and u not trippin and you wit it and fuck it cuz its whatever and u not phased and u just doing u and 'it is what it is' and you in your own lane same shit different day... why... why is dreaming for more and putting the work in so hard for you? what, are u just good with complaining? accepting everything as is? then u hate on people dream of more

and that's koo, but u have no real self value all u do is what u been trained and don't say that ain't tru but that ain't u u living everyone else's expectations no matter how great or bad ready to blow up and defend Nothing first chance you get at who u deem as opposition really, u battling yourself and your own fears, needing respect and exposure life is already a war, so why do u insist on creating more wars and battle wounds for yourself fighting all these different faces just as lost scared and confused as u in the field just so u can have a story to tell u wanna 'keep it real, thorough, a hunned and all' but if u in a mood u don't wanna here the truth so since you all about dares then.. I dare you! to become, instead of just being I dare you! to exercise restraint while directing your pain towards a path of purpose- not believing you are selling yourself short by not reacting, but realizing that by proactivity, you make more gains towards a future built by You- rather than one built for you by being impulsive, acting out of fear-which you call anger no u not mad u just a scared boy that's too afraid to grow up believing your pain and story is something special and different than everyone else's... in a fight, who gets the best seats, the spectator or the fighter? I dare you to stop spectating, and fight for more fight for yourself to become yourself don't fight yourself because you're scared and scarred those are self inflicted, stop lying to yourself! become you! let's think out the box for a second radical as opposed to conventional wisdoms... what if i told you that the way you view the word selfish has made you feel sorry for everybody outside of u that u have no time and energy for self growth that it keeps u in the same position because your meaning of sacrifice is actually sabotage because u hate yourself! and u rather just do for others so u can stop thinking about who it is that u believe they see when they look at u what if I told u that working on self is the best way to help someone else? I is We helping yourself is helping others how can u improve things outside of u- if the barriers inside u, have u so cut off that u can't take heed to your own message- u can't even see yourself no more how can u have an idea of what other people need if u don't know what u need?! u can't build self value off others u build self value by building self up then u help by showing others how to do the same- we are built to build Up, not accumulate build up the cycles you get stuck in are of your own creation when u lead for self, when the only voice u hear is your own, and the voice of those u try to help are mute, than what are u doing? stop preaching! live your truth let go of yesterday and tomorrow be present right here and now you are a teacher just by all you've experienced a teacher gives a platform for voices a teacher learns twice by teaching a teacher embraces the challenge of learning thru experience self growth and new environments once u figure that we're all a product of our environment, u can choose to make your environment productive your environment isn't just who you are u can create and move your environment but "without discipline there is no development" Maulana Karenga said that ultimately, you are who you create yourself to be so next time I ask you who you are, your answer should be a creation of your own not of someone else's so, who are you? Young R.U.S.S.!